Mental Health Update. Why is Self-Esteem so Difficult?

I have to be honest in that I've been struggling the past few days. I'm not where I want to be in life (recovered), and my self-esteem has taken a hit. I have a mental health disability and am unable to financially provide for myself on my own. I turned 38 last week and I'm still living at home with my parents. I've been struggling immensely with trying to find a work-from-home job with a steady income in writing/blogging or influencing. I don't have the proper certification requirements in some job postings. I'm wondering if it's worth continuing to job search in these areas, as well as to keep blogging here. I'm not sure how interested people are in reading this blog.

Any feedback?

I've also been struggling with body image again, partly due to being triggered with the increase in calories starting with the holidays and then my birthday.

Nonetheless I will always keep trying to improve and get back on track in recovery. I need to develop new strategies as far as getting my confidence slowly back up again. And to prioritize as well. Taking care of myself should always come first.

Enjoy the rest of your week, and keep warm! 😉☃️❄️